Spiral

Here I am in my shame spiral
I’m sucked in to it again
And I reach out for your opinion
And you bring the light back in

I know you think that you are not able to help me… but you are sometimes the only person who can.

Don’t leave me here with all these critical voices
Cause they do their best to bring me down

I know that you worry about getting pulled down and drowning with me instead of pulling us both up. I worry about that too. But maybe if we both kick in the same direction, we will get each other out together.

Once again in my shame spiral
I am glad that you’ve weighed in

Don’t leave me here with all these critical voices
cuz they do their best to bring me down.
When I’m alone with all these negative voices,
I will need your help to turn them down, turn them round.

I know that this is too much to ask of anyone. I’m sorry that I keep asking so much of you. I don’t want to give in to this pain- I don’t want it to win. I don’t think that I have brought this on myself.

I have bipolar II. Now what? What will my life be? Where will this go?

This moments narratee is a desperate plea for slack to be cut to me

lyrics from the song Spiral by Alanis Morissette

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